TONIGHT

Tonight was an awesome night. 23^rd of August, 2008. it was pearl ma’am birthday and we were invited. The party was kewl and the music was great. But the people were just so awesome. I saw this beautiful girl today, a dentist by profession, from Cochin, a city in the south of India. She seemed to be a perfect mix of Indian and western cultures. But anyways, something which really will stay in my memory would be the two of my teachers dancing crazily to the tunes of Bollywood and hip hop. One of them, a mother of two, and the other, the most respected, feared literature teacher. It was super fun, super kewl. Also, I guess I have started liking the taste of beer. My tongues started getting used to the tinge of the bitterness, or probably my life is. Its weird the way I feel about this person. At times, I hate it whenever I consume alcohol and am having a blast, this person crosses my mind. I feel as if I see her, in reality. I probably may consider quitting alcohol for the same. Or probably I have alcohol for the same. Alcohol gets me so near to this person. I can feel my soul actually drifting away from my body at times, looking for her. I can feel my soul detaching from me. Its weird for me. Its been quite some time I have tried to move on. A million times maybe. But yeah, I have been a failure. A failure all the way. At times I feel like a Nobel Prize winner by the way I write. But I know how good I am. With lack of vocabulary, I cannot even write a simple poem. Oh yeah, Monday is poetry test. I really don’t know what I am going to do about it. I will follow my instincts. If they assist me, I shall write one of the best poetries in the class, inshallah!!! I really have no clue why the heck am I writing this piece of crap, although I know that when people would be laughing at me, when they read this. I may be considered a fool. FOOL, oh yeah. That’s what they feel I am. But probably somewhere inside, I know I love being called a fool. Cause a fool for the reason of being one; I’d be one all my life. These days, I have started using work as a way to escape this spirit I see, I feel, I imagine. I miss work even on weekends. Wonder how long I am going to be running from this! Wonder how far I will survive! Wonder what next! And now this alcohol is probably making me feel really sleepy. I better post these thoughts before I change my mind of doing so. Now back to honesty. Tonight actually was just another night for me without my angel, me living life like an incomplete dream. Good night world!!! Sleep well!!! Have a great weekend!!!